lila.

beautifully expressed discontent
always wanting that which I can't have
she bares her teeth to me
as I drift off to sleep
she bares her teeth to me
and I accept this defeat

sea animal.

cut that Seattle shit off at the root,
can't take it no more.
i'm left smelling the past like a street rat.
had to find myself waist deep
in another's martyred sexuality
to see what was right in front of me.
i'm a caged animal, freed
clipped wings and no song to sing.
i'm a lost soul, please
wait for mind to stop wandering.

no spark.

gnashing mouths
unappetized
dull & smooth
no spark

the pull.

the gravity
of your weighted soul
keeps me in orbit.
old strength, new beauty
effortlessly entangled.

i'm back.

 

Let It

Lifelines left to dry
hung, unspun
as my mind goes
where it's supposed to.

Obscene

She made me

take my shoes off

before I entered.

I found it queer,

but complied with

the first of many

obscenities.

Dopamine

Sporadic paths.

Eyes beg to glimmer while
mind begs otherwise.
And I’m not too sure,
but this doesn’t feel honest.

Smiles instead of
asking questions.

Cotton

Mouth filled:
23 years of cotton.
I'd bite my tongue too,
if I could find it.
Swallow hard to smile, honey.

It never stops.

UNDRGRND

Presently pitying me,

I beg. And by entirely different means,

I found the way you lost yourself.

You wanted to believe in anything.