fast friends.

we crashed,
instantly fusing the worst parts of ourselves
together.
the fumes from our union
were hypnotic
and i found it so easy to overlook
the toxicity.
when you looked at me, I was seen
and the rest of the world stood still.
nothing like us had ever existed
and never would.
we blinded each other.
until
we crashed again.

shine.

mind flooded with temptation
weakness abound
nervous panic sets in
no stopping me now
you stood up to my darkness
looked me dead in the eye
reminded me the key to my light
was to let it shine

swim.

lost at sea, so easily.
I wasn't looking and
let the tide be my guide.
I followed mindlessly,
even watched from above
as the current carried me
out into the deep.
I could probably swim, if I tried
but my arms are tongue-tied
as I continue to follow your lead.
I could probably swim, if I tried
but I won't. Survival's a farce
when I could be drowning by your side.

lila.

beautifully expressed discontent
always wanting that which I can't have
she bares her teeth to me
as I drift off to sleep
she bares her teeth to me
and I accept this defeat

sea animal.

cut that Seattle shit off at the root,
can't take it no more.
i'm left smelling the past like a street rat.
had to find myself waist deep
in another's martyred sexuality
to see what was right in front of me.
i'm a caged animal, freed
clipped wings and no song to sing.
i'm a lost soul, please
wait for mind to stop wandering.

no spark.

gnashing mouths
unappetized
dull & smooth
no spark

the pull.

the gravity
of your weighted soul
keeps me in orbit.
old strength, new beauty
effortlessly entangled.

i'm back.

 

Let It

Lifelines left to dry
hung, unspun
as my mind goes
where it's supposed to.

Obscene

She made me

take my shoes off

before I entered.

I found it queer,

but complied with

the first of many

obscenities.